wala ako magawa, okay?!

hindi ko alam kung bakit sa pagkanegative ng buhay ko....

napakapositive pa rin ng tingin ko sa buhay ko.

Sa totoo lang, trying hard to be negative ako. GUSTO KO MAGPAKANEGATIVE pero eventually, nagiging positive rin ako. I know, I know. It's a good thing na positive ako pero gaaahd. Lahat ng negative ko sa buhay ay mabubulok sa loob ko kung hindi ko ilalabas. Palagi ko nga naiisip ngayon...

"ok lang magpakanegative minsan pero huwag lang seryosohin"

PRELIMS. bagsak dalawang grades ko. Heto ako, chill pa rin. Gaaahd. Feeling ko naman mababawi ko eh.  Feeling lang naman. Shit. Ang lakas ng confidence ko. Err.. actually, I hate it. Sa sobrang confidence, nawawala na ung initiative ko na magbigay ng extra effort sa mga bagay bagay.

when will i ever change?

i've been through my worst ... and yeah, i'm proud to say that I am still breathing and still facing the consequences of life.

080808. very lucky day? it's just an ordinary but a special day for me.

Slept for 10 hours. I needed it badly. So there, my goal for the day is to go to fairview and have my pimples exploded with anger!!! haha, kidding. With all those endless night, surely, pimples will really invade my face. Screw them. I look helpless. Going to fairview is really expensive. I mean, with the expensive transporation fees, gahd.

So before proceeding to fairview, I met up with Angeline at Ever and had lunch at Shakeys. Then, we met up with Arline at Starbucks. Had laughtrips and a studying session. I miss them. So much.... so that : ) )

I got home around 6:45pm. I was craving for ADOBO SA GATA. gaahd. i miss eating it with juvan and erika.

and now.. it's 12:56AM. and still I haven't finished reading 2 chapters of my BA book for the quiz later. I feel lazy.

I thought of isolating myself from the people around me and who are trying to keep in touch with me this week to concentrate more on the PRELIMS... so who's with me? HAHA.

i'm back again! hooray for me!

ayoko na magblog sa multiply... nakakagago lang. : ) ) at least dito... konti lang makakabasa.

it's exactly 2AM and i'm still awake. PRELIMS na next week at ginagago ko buhay ko ngayon. paano? petix ng sobra sobra. hindi na ako nag-aaral. ewan ko. knowing na bumabagsak ako sa ibang subjects, wala.. sobrang wala na ako pakielam. feeling ko nmn papasa ako eh. haha! assuming.

kamusta ako? ito masaya nmn kht papaano. pero nangingibabaw ang lungkot at sakit. ok ang emo. pero oo, inaamin ko un. parang ang feeling ko, lahat ay nawala sa akin. lahat ay nawala sa kanilang tamang pinaglagyan ko. bakit ganun? do i deserve this?

eh ano pa nga ba magagawa ko. nangyari na. hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. just go with the flow na lang. ayoko naman umaasa kaya pls. wag niyo ako paasahin.

wow. express na express ako ngayon. cguro dahil bangag ako. i think later on, magsisisi ako kung bakit ko ito ipinost at pagkatapos ay priprivate ko ito.

zzzzzzz